Don’t take this that I’m fishing for compliments or encouragement. I just have to get this out there. I am so surprised by the responses I’m getting from people in regards to running my marathon. I thought that I’d tell the people closest to me as another tool to help hold myself accountable. And really – some of the responses have really surprised me. A few people that I’m closest too, if by force because they are family or coworkers, have literally laughed in my face when I told them about my goal. Um, hello family / friends / acquaintances – Thank you. Yes. I know how hard this is going to be. Remember – my father has completed 50+ marathons? Many of which I was waiting there at the finish – after I ran my race that same day? My internship? Was at the Twin Cities Marathon. I get it people, its going to be hard, but cheese and rice, have a little faith in me!
What I want to tell them – is that I’m already afraid that I won’t make it. Or that like every other thing in my life I’ve committed to I’ve failed at. And that any additional doubt is NOT what I need. It goes back to this quote I remember from 7th grade health class (shout out Mrs. Bigalk). “Don’t blow out my candle to make yours shine brighter.” Quite frankly – behind my back – doubt all you want – but at least fake it when this comes up next time we’re together okay?
At the end of the day, I’m most appreciative for those friends that I know sincerely believe in me. It’s generally a reciprocated relationship – because I also believe in them, that those friends can accomplish the goals that they want to accomplish. It’s those friends, that take the usual, sarcastic, self-deprecating me that we laugh at what I’m saying together but it ends with real support of accomplishing my goal.
I went back and re-read old blog postings. It’s interesting to see where I wanted to go and where I am. Keeping in mind – there is a little bit more to my life than my weight-loss initiatives, it is quite apparent how much of my life is spend thinking about these goals I have. Time for inaction to stop and action to kick in.