BYOC & TGIF!

From Drazil - "So here we go - 5 questions - funny and serious - to get to know each other better! Join in if you dare!"

1. If you had 3 wishes what would they be and why? (you can't wish for more wishes or money!)(Thanks Steph)

1. I wish everyone on earth could drink clean water. Water is essential to life, and without that, how is progress expected in other areas of life?
2. I wish to be able to consume 3,000 calories every day and still be healthy with killer abs. (hey – it’s a wish, right?)
3. I wish to live a long, happy, healthy life with my significant other. Our parents have poor health and have gone through divorces and already putting spouses in nursing homes and such. I just want us to live happily and healthy together for the rest of our lives.

2. If you had all the money in the world and perfect circumstances - how many children would you have and what sex?

I would like either two girls or twin girls. Maybe a boy first then a girl. Who knows. Health first, gender next! :)

3. Have you ever faked it? (Because I need to laugh...feel free to skip this one if it's too personal.)

No… why reward bad behavior? Lol.

4. What movie character do you think you look like?

I’ve never been told I look like anyone. I’ve been told I have “distinct” or “unique” features. I hope that doesn’t mean I’m funny looking! Haha.

5. Repeat question. Which blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you this week and why?

Diz from Death by Calories posted yesterday about noticing how other people eat their food. (particularly noticing thin people). I’ve also done that – and I’ve wondered – what does that mean of me for focusing on other people? Or wanting seconds when everyone else stopped halfway through firsts? I also received a lot of supportive comments on my blog which I so appreciate. I think it’s amazing that people take the time to read my posts and read my thoughts. I feel like there are some really terrific blogs that actually HELP people out there, so mine feels kind of irrelevant, or that it doesn’t offer much to other people, so when someone takes the time to read… wow. It’s just so so nice and it makes me want to be a better blogger and a writer. I’m also positive that I will be successful this time in getting rid of these damn 40# that haunt my thoughts all day long BECAUSE of this amazing blogland community. 
I hope everyone has a terrific weekend... I'm running the bluff again and going to kick some ass. Hope you can all do the same!

Still not sweating it...

Calories in/Calories out would lead one to believe that I should have lost about a pound since last Thursday, not a gain of almost 4 lbs! That would be an EXTRA 14,000 calories in 7 days! Funny thing is - yesterday, I bought a pair of size 10 pants for the first time in about 4 years! So what the heck? Still sucks - nobody likes to see that,

Not going to sweat it. Just going to keep focused on my refreshed attitude of planning my meals and keeping my RDI in the green... I got in a little extra workout this morning and I plan on going for a walk over my lunch hour today. It is supposed to be great weather, and I have no car to help me escape any other way.

Starting to think about what my workout challenge will be this weekend, and I'm starting to consider running Soldier's Bluff twice for about a 4-5 mile run, and I would get two mean, long, nasty hill runs in.

Thank you to everyone for the supportive comments on my last few posts. It was a little strange feeling so exposed and honest - instead of trying to sugar coat things in the land of Puppy Dogs and Ice Cream, so thanks for letting me bitch - and again, thanks for the comments. It totally is helping me snap back into Weight loss/Exercise Ninja mode. Here's to making it a good day. Its Wednesday! The work week is half way done!

Pity Party O-V-E-R

As promised, my one day funk is over. I'm back into my routine of boot camp at the crack of dawn, some extra quality elliptical time, having my planned-out lunch, and will have a good dinner. Ah. Breathing a sigh of relief to control again. I think yesterday felt out of control (because of decisions I've made) but now I've grabbed the reigns again and I'm feeling like a champ.

Why berate myself so heavily for having a bad week? Again - I still was under my calorie burn, just over my RDI. And I'm at over 6 weeks of steady weight loss. This isn't some fad intense detox for me, but rather a controlled rise into a healthier, maintainable lifestyle. Why be so focused on what didn't go well, and focus a little more on my victories? Now don't confuse this with making excuses for what I did, because you know what? I'm okay with it. Life happens and its a good reminder of what I'm trying to accomplish and the consequences to good and bad decisions.

Regardless. Moving on. Done with that subject.

Whiny Blog... Consider Yourself Warned.

So this is the blog where I whine and pout through the whole thing. As noted above – consider yourself warned.

I’m pissed off because the last week – I SUCKED at food. Ugh. My Fatsecret.com diet calendar screams at me in the red “in excessive of my RDI” for the past few days… now, my RDI (recommended daily intake) that I’m shooting for is 1600 calories, so if I ever go above that, that’s when these annoying red percentages (110%, 138%... 187%!) you get the picture. Not every day results in a day where I consume more calories than I burn – but I’ve not been chasing after that glorious green # of staying under my RDI. I’m just so pissed off at myself for these decisions I’ve been making. And I SEE exactly what’s been happening, and I make these decisions with every meal, and I even think about what I *should* eat, but I blow it off anyway. Dammit. I just need to get back in the right state of mind.

I made it to Spin on Saturday so I got some exercise in, but yesterday, while it was a FANTASTIC day (we anchored out on Lake Pepin with fellow boaters), I drank too much alcohol, leading me to have to spend the night on our houseboat, and I missed boot camp this morning. Not to mention, I feel like a GIANT loser for having a hangover on Monday. At work. I’m trying to be positive and think how much fun yesterday was, and that no, I don’t make decisions like that often. But I’m just frustrated and disappointed in myself. I’ve been doing so well this time, and I’ve been throwing it away the past week.

I know what I’m doing wrong. I know what’s done is done. I know I need to move on and let it go. But it doesn’t make it any easier to do so. I’m really disappointed I let discipline slide and disappear from my life the past week. Its time to get it back.

So here I am. Hungover, at work, on a Monday, sunburned, and disappointed. Time to make a grocery store trip and pull myself out of this Sorry Sally funk. We've all been there. We all know what needs to be done. But can I have a pity party today and whine? Ugh. 210 minutes of work left, then I can leave and punish myself with the P90x Chest and Back DVD to make up for this morning's missed workout because I sure do love working out with a hanger. Blah.