Do your best and forget the rest...

That's today's motto for sure. I don't really have anything new or insightful to say today... but my cluttered mind does feel better after a quick blog. Here's the thoughts of the day:

Target: I went to Target over the weekend and spotted a cute bikini. Ambitious, right? Well, my thought was, I would take a now picture in that swimsuit and then plaster that image in my head until I've completed P90x where I can then take an after picture. Turns out, I couldn't get my ass into the swim bottoms, so I didn't even bother with the top. I think that swimsuit is more than one round of P90x away. Good intentions, sour results. The quest continues for swimwear that will continue to motivate me until summer. Oh - and instead of a bikini, I purchased new workout shorts, when I really wanted to head to the frozen food section and pick up a pint of Haagen Daaz chocolate chocolate chip ice cream. Little Victories, right?

Diet this weekend: I would say it was a good 50/50. We had pizza Friday night, but I didn't eat the portions I typically would (you know - half a pizza to match my bf). He has started tracking is food... and sheesh. No wonder I've gained some serious poundage since we've been dating. I eat like a MAN! My BMR is over 1,000 calories less than what his is per day, and being the champ I am, can hang in there bite for bite with him - and can even cross the caloric finish line ahead of him. Gross! I just had one of those epiphany moments where even though I knew that was the case before, somehow it finally just clicked in me. What an eye opener to acknowlege just how out of whack my portions have been lately. I had some alcohol - an entire bottle of wine and then some - and it really drives me nuts to not only feel dehydrated, but my skin looks like shit! No other way to say it, sorry! Not only that - but I didn't get my legs & back x workout in. Ugh. Its so frustrating when in retrospect I can see those self-destructive behaviors - that of course, were fun at the time. Whatever though - what we dwell on we do well on, so I'm not going to dwell on the negative aspects of the weekend, but how excited I am to BRING IT this week.

Goals:

 - Stay under 1,600 calories / 30 ww points.
 - Get in my P90x workouts in everyday before work the rest of the week - doing my best and forgetting the rest.
 - Water, Water, Water!
 - Pack my own lunch at work everyday!

Honesty is the Best Policy

As I reflect back on what was my first week of P90x, I grade myself a C at best. I didn't get the protein shake yet, didn't do my grocery shopping so I would have my best meals at my disposal, I never took my before pics and measurements, and I want to get a set of heavier weights and a band. I know, excuses excuses. I rushed myself into this thing with out being prepared - and the little bit of Type A personality I have does not respond well to such poor planning! If this thing is going to get 90 days, I want to do it right, for maximum results. Already on my schedule for tonight, instead of drinking the green beers with my friends, I've got a list for Super Target a mile long, and my new dedication and attitude, I've decided Today is really going to by my P90x day one. And I'm okay with that, and really excited. Its nice that I've done a week of the exercises, so I know what I'm doing. I also plan on doing the "classic" version rather than the lean.

Fun tip of the day is that I'm also becoming gung-ho on my favorite blackberry app called "Fat Secret." Its an awesome tool that can track everything that goes into my mouth - and even calculates measured weights for me. You can track your calories, fat, fiber, WW points - lots of options! You can even sync your phone to their online site. Probably my favorite feature? Its FREE!

I'm totally on Day 2 soreness from legs - and although my right ass-cheek soreness has seemed to simmer down a touch - now my calves feel extra shot. It is that GOOD sore though. After a yoga session a few weeks ago that made me believe I caused serious damage to my right hamstring, (see what an attention whore the right side of my body is?) I thought that I was crazy ever thinking that a workout caused a good sore.

Enough rambling for today. Looking forward to a busy and productive St. Patties Day. Maybe I'll have a green lemon sparkling water to celebrate.

Right Ass Cheek Dominant

So I guess this whole P90x thing in combination with blogging about my experience is forcing me to learn things about myself. Like that I’m right ass-cheek dominant. Yowzaa! After last night’s first go at legs and back on P90x, I feel as though today, my right butt cheek has the same fabulousness as a J.Lo or Kim Kardashian rear end. Which leads me to the discovery that I must be right ass-cheek dominant. My right glut got far more attention then its left side twin because it is Sore Sore Sore today. Every move that was performed last night, I felt like this strong power woman on the right side, and like a drunken uncoordinated clown on the left side. So looks like next week’s go at Legs and Back, I’ll need to provide extra special attention to the left side. I’d hate for the left side to feel neglected or seem any less fabulous than its counterpart.

I can’t believe how it’s only been a few days of the program and I really feel much stronger! Especially because it’s an in-house work out. Oh, and last night’s workout had an audience… My BF showed up halfway through my workout and got sucked into the DVD. Granted, he just watched the DVD, and claimed he was becoming tired just watching it, I think he may have actually been inspired enough to give the DVD’s a try! Before I got home from work, he really tempted me to skip my workout when he asked what I had planned for the evening. AND I WAS SO TEMPTED TO SKIP!!!! It made me realize just how critical having someone at home that supports you to do this program is! I’m hoping, that even though he doesn’t seem like the guy that would do an at home workout, I really want him to start, because I think it will help me follow through. We also agreed that we are going to try not to eat at 7 at night anymore.

Part of my 90 days to a better me is that I’m seeing a new chiropractor that is focused on providing “total health” care. So I’ll have 4 weeks of visits to help rid me of my chronic headaches and there is also a nutritional component that reviews what foods are in my system and what nutrients that I’m missing. I’m not looking forward to the obvious – that I have too many white, starchy, refined carbs in my system (mmm… pizza, garlic bread, alcohol, and ice cream) but, I like the idea of getting third party support as I try to add things into my life that are good for me, and portion control all of the things I love and usually end up binging on.

Good luck to all the ladies out there that are trying to own their day and their actions. For some of us, it’s a struggle every meal to choose the right thing, or to get that work out in, but slowly and surely, we will conquer our challenges and OWN our goals. BRING IT!

A Ruined Meal is Not a Ruined Day/Week/Month

Not gonna lie. I had a GREAT weekend... minus the emotional baggage from not following my diet very closely.  Friday night, even after one of the longest afternoons at work ever, I managed to go home and complete Day 2 of P90x. It felt great and my bf even managed to occupy himself for an hour so I didn't need to workout with an audience.  Saturday was a great day. I spent some time with my little sisters, then my bf and I went out to lunch - where the meal was fine, but I had  cocktails. I can't say that I'm forbidding myself to drink or anything, but what I need to do is remind myself what I'm losing out on by drinking - all those empty calories! I should say though, what I'm *not* losing by drinking. I got in my workouts, I was going to try to double up one day so I'm only a week behind my friend Gina in the program, but I think I'll just work through my rest day instead.

The YogaX is a little long for me. Its not so much the yoga - but I wish the program had a little more energy to it. The slow pace made it harder for me to focus - but maybe that's what I'll get out of the DVD is the ability to reign in my thoughts some.

I didn't plan and bring a lunch today - so I think its a Panera "You Pick Two" day for me. Soup and Salad.... I'll look online and plan out my most nutritous option.

One thing that has to get done tonight is my assessment... I can't say that taking pictures of myself right now is all that exciting - but maybe its those pictures I should put on my fridge and cellphone wall paper. Oy. That would remotivate me any time.

Congratulations to Gina - she had a victory with a pair of jeans yesterday and she absolutely energizes me to keep going!